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[13 Jul 2003|02:17pm] Blah....Hi? Insomnia sucks ass. It really does. Aly, Chris and I had girls night in. Talking about guys, sex, so on...and of course, drinking. I'm only slightly drunk, you can ask Jordan, I was way too giggly...I'm glad him and I are still friends, at least. I seem to be with Jere at least two hours each day; usually much more. Just hanging around, talking, goofing off. He's a great guy, and anyone who hurts him, I'll kick their ass. He's a great guy and he deserves the best. And I'm going to go stare at my ceiling and hope to doze off before the sun comes up. 3 comments|post comment

[10 Jul 2003|11:39pm] Alright, I'm updating because I have absolutly nothing to do. The only person around is Jere, who is always around; at least there's someone to keep me entertained around here. Yup, I seem to be the official sister around here - and it all started with Benji. I'm probably only his little sister because I can annoy him enough to be. It's a gift, it really is. It's so fun to watch him get pissed off, probably because he never stays mad for more than ten seconds, and if he acts like it, he's usually just joking. Then there's Jere, who I've been spending a shitlod of time with lately. I'm not sure how exaclty he manages to put up with me - but you gotta give him credit for lasting at least this long. He's my snuggles! Matt's going to have to go through me first now if he wants to hang out with Jere; he's just too cool for words, and my new big brother. I now regret ever putting the Mest CD in my computer - I really did not need to see Tony naked...even though people sent me pictures of it anyway. I think the question around here is who hasn't seen that. Benji is the only one that needs to see that. I'm scarred for life... There is Good Charlotte underwear in Hot Topic. I burst out laughing when I saw it and bought it to show Joel, who thought I actually was going to wear it (yeah, right). I gave them to Benji, who said he'd wear it. We tried to get Joel to wear it, he owes me for dressing up like Disco Barbie. I will burn that costume. I hung out with David. We were supposed to watch a movie but we ended up just talking instead. We never do manage to get to watching the movie. It's really pretty sad actually, but it's fun to just sit around and talk to someone. Billy gave me the scare of the fucking year yesturday. God...I was scared something would actually happen to him the way he was talking - and thankfully, nothing did. But I have to admit, I'm impressed by the boy's vast knowledge of plants and flowers. I'm just going to start rambling now because I have absolutly nothing else to write about, and if I do it's not coming to mind right now, so you could probably just stop reading here, the rest will be random thoughts that are going through my mind. Is there actually someone out there for everyone? I mean, there are not an exact number of men and women, and what if you never find the person you're meant to be with? What if you end up alone? Why am I such a depressing idiot? I miss Josh for some reason lately. Maybe just watching Benji and Joel fight, argue and joke around makes me miss my own little brother to pick on and harass. He should get a journal, and I know if he does I'll end up regretting ever saying that becuase he'll probably drive me insane and humiliate me with baby pictures or something equally as bad. And I have to make a note to myself to make sure Benji never gets ahold of his number or something to try and get blackmail things on me. I miss working. I want to go back to work. It gave me something to do. I really miss Dark Angel - it was fun to work on the show and James Cameron is an amazing guy. It was fun being able to be held up by harnesses, ride motor cycles and learn different self-defense techniques. The only thing I'm not missing is having to jump on guys and basically have to act when Max was in heat. Whoever wrote those scripts were evil. But hey, a perk of being an actress is you get to make out with hot guys on the set...Hmm...Idle Hands. I mean, what? Hi. I really have nothing to do now, except reading over scripts as they get sent to me. See if anything catches my eye. I'm procrastinating and the pile is just growing larger and larger. I should really get to that. I would too if I felt like reading. I'm too lazy for my own good. Okay...Jere and I really have too much time on our hands and our minds wander too much. It's amazing the amount of things we manage to talk about and if anyone ever tried to follow one of our conversations, they'd be lost in the first few minutes. Oh well, that's half the fun of it. Benjamin Levi, Joel Rueben, Anthony Luigi...get your asses on soon because I'm going to die from boredom pretty damn soon, and I'm afraid that I might end up driving Jeremiah insane pretty fucking soon. Mest might need a new guitarist/background vocals if Jere is stuck around me anymore. Alright, I'm done for now...I might go take a nap or....something. I have a headache from last night that still hasn't gone away...Bring on the drugs. Pain killers own me. I'm going to end up some addicted-to-pain-killers freak or something. What a pleasant thought. 1 comment|post comment

[08 Jul 2003|02:10pm] Okay, yes, I broke up with Jordan. I just couldn't take it anymore. I mean, it sort of makes me feel like shit when I'm sitting in a room with my boyfriend and my friends and he's sitting there talking about how hot another girl is and if he can have her. Nick and Joel were joking about going gay so that all of Mest and Good Charlotte would go gay, then Jordan asks if he can have Torry. I mean...okay how am I supposed to feel about that; other than worthless and shitty? Then he starts talking about getting off to the hot girls in a magazine...and it's like I'm not even there. I told him about it later, and he said that it was just a joke...well I'm sorry, maybe my sense of humor just sucks, but I wasn't exactly laughing while listening to my boyfriend talk about other girls - serious or not. It just hurt. It made me feel like shit, like I'm not good enough, like I'm a disappointment to him. I felt useless and I was tired of feeling that way. Even when I left the room, he didn't even bother to come in and check on me, it was Jere, Benji and Joel who decided to come see if I was okay. The only feeling I was getting was that he didn't care about me. He begged me to stay...he told me he loved me...If he loved me, why did I never feel good enough? If he wanted me to stay, why did I always feel like I was never wanted? Am I really as worthless, ugly and useless as I feel? Am I really that horrible that after he said he wanted a kid the next thing he said was "Aw man does that mean we have to have sex again". Do you know how fucking shitty that makes a girl feel? I don't know if he was joking or not, and personally, I don't care. It hurts either way. Some jokes are funny and some are just cruel...after tonight, I was done feeling worthless. I couldn't take it anymore. I don't know, maybe I did something to deserve it, maybe...I don't know, but I couldn't stand it anymore... I also apparantly recieved a death threat that if I take Britney's place as Alex's mom, she'll kill me. I just have one thing to say: what the FUCK? I mean, I don't even know what to say to that; and how did it even start? A teddy bear. Yes, a teddy bear that seemed to strike up a shitload of jealousy among people for no reason. My best friend decides to come visit his best friend who had just been in a car accident and give her a teddy bear. Okay, so what is there to do in a hospital room? Abso-fuckingly-lutely nothing, so I have the teddy bear in my hands; and the things cute - so sue me, I'm a girl, I like stuffed animals. But honestly, then suddenly, Joel and I are getting very closer. Head's up, we always were close, he was my best friend - and the next thing I know I'm getting threatened to be killed for something that I would not do. Britney is Alex's mother, end of story, no one will ever take her place. I don't know why she thinks I would do that - but jesus fucking christ; this is getting out of hand! I am at a point where I am just sick of it all - I honestly am. I'm tired of all these accusations flying through the air; I'm tired of finger pointing. Right now the only people I can really stand to be around are Jere because I spent all day yesturday with him and he is an amazing friend; Benji my big brother who I enjoy scaring the shit out of with idle threats on harming his guitar; Joel because he is the best fucking friend in the whole world who actually listens to me and doesn't make me feel like shit; Alyssa because she is my savior and I love her to bits and of course Tony who just fucking rocks. Those are the people I hung out with tonight - those are my friends - those are the people who are not constantly up my ass about some shit because of a stuffed animal - and those are the people to whom I trust with anything ( and they probably know that tonight too ). You guys, thank you for being there for me, for putting up with the moodiness, the pissiness, and putting up with me in general. I don't know how you managed, but thank you. <3 And with that, I think I'm going to go to bed and just...sleep this whole night off. Any more drama and I think I'd take a gun, point it to my head and blow my fucking brains out. I am just...fed up with everything right now. Good-night. 3 comments|post comment

[07 Jul 2003|09:42pm] This is like writing up a suicide note...and signing it. Hi, Benji and Joel. -smiles sweetly- ( Please Don't Kill Me ) 3 comments|post comment

[06 Jul 2003|09:58am] Well, I guess it's about time I did a decent update, so here goes... I was away for about three weeks, working, meeting with people and attending a premiere or two as well as going to the Maxim Hot 100 Party ( which Joel, Jordan and Tony are mad at me for - I didn't take them along ). I spent the first day back with Jordan mostly; you never realize how much you miss someone until they're not there anymore. I definatly was glad to be back. Apparantly, I missed a shitload of stuff and I'm not even sure what it is anymore since I seem to be hearing different things from everyone. I am so fucking lost and confused, and having a concussion really does not help situations at all. I also got to see Joel earlier - and amuse him by dressing up like him. I got bored, I had a credit card and I saw a Hot Topic, I think you can all but everything together. But...good things don't last forever. I refuse to ever get into another car again after that. I'm not exactly sure how it happened, but the amount of pain it caused is enough for me to know that cars are evil. Jordan's been in the hospital with me for most of it, David's in the bed next to be (considering he was driving) and Joel stopped by earlier for a few minutes. Alright...I'm dead tired and I want to sleep; so good night, sweet dreams, so on, so forth...blah blah blah... post comment

[04 Jul 2003|10:14pm] I'm back... Anyone miss me? And can someone tell me what I've missed? 1 comment|post comment

[12 Jun 2003|09:36pm] I was told to update, so here goes. ....Okay I am so completely braindead that it is not even funny, and there's one thing on my mind - well one person on my mind: Jordan. I usually end up spending all my time with him. Okay...there's an update: all about Jordan. Happy? :laughs: 2 comments|post comment

[04 Jun 2003|06:07pm] I was just reminded that two people had to go to the hospital because of me. :-x Not to mention that I've hurt a few people; but not that badly thankfully. Sarah freakin' rocks, mmk? And I got one GC song out of my head, only to have another one drilled in there. Damn you people for writing good songs. :-P Okay, I'm going back to bed now, I had a late night, I went to the premier for 2Fast, 2Furious. Haha, my pictures were up before everyone elses -- even the stars of the show. That's so cool. And this update is just for Billy and Aly, who's comments I just saw in my last entry. :-* post comment

[23 May 2003|05:11pm] Only I would end up with a boyfriend who's never around... I think that means that it's over. Wow, guess who feels cheap? ::sighs and rubs eyes:: 4 comments|post comment

[21 May 2003|05:54pm] I'm alive? If anyone cares. 3 comments|post comment

[29 Apr 2003|06:26am] ::walks into her house, tossing keys onto the table and walking straight into her bedroom:: Today was uneventful for the most part, unless you count being woken up this morning...but I'll let that pass...I just want to go to bed and sleep... ::collapses on her bed, crawling under the covers and snuggling with the pillow:: One more year come and gone...One year closer to death. Doesn't seem like a reason to celebrate. ::reaches up and flips off the light switch, closing her eyes and drifting to sleep:: 3 comments|post comment

[22 Apr 2003|06:24pm] "God gave men both a brain and a penis but unfortuantly not enough blood supply to run both at the same time." "I'm all in favor of keeping dangerous weapons out of the hands of fools. Let's start with typewriters." "When all men think alike, no one thinks very much" "If it weren't for marriage, men would spend their lives thinking they had no faults at all. " "The theory used to be you marry an older man because they are more mature. The new theory is that men don't mature. So you might as well marry a younger one." "Love is the answer, but while you're waiting for the answer, sex raises some pretty good questions." "Sex is like bridge: If you don't have a good partner, you better have a good hand." ( Riddle Me This... ) Can anyone tell I'm bored? 5 comments|post comment

[20 Apr 2003|05:14pm] Yes, I finally am updating. I am way too lazy to have a journal, it takes me forever to get to updating this thing, and most of the time, I don't have a clue what to say. Christina and I hung out...and got plastered, and played truth or dare. And I have come to a simple conclusion. We both need to get laid. ::laughs:: I loved hanging out with her, its fun to just sit around and bitch about anything and everything humanly possible. Britney and I went and got ice cream and just joked around. She brought Cash with her, and we concluded that Benji and Cash look alike...sometimes. If you don't believe me, I have a picture to prove it. We ended up in an ice cream fight. She smeared some in my face...I shoved it down her bra and in her face...That was...definatly interesting. Then she told Cash to get me, so I ended up on my back with a dog sitting on me licking my face... Pierre...rocks. He made me laugh, and he does the eh! No, I haven't lost my mind, I swear, I just love the canadian eh thing they do. It's so cute! Okay right, shutting up now. And...and I'm going to do something. HAPPY EASTER! 3 comments|post comment

[12 Apr 2003|02:04pm] ( Mindless Ramble--Don't Waste Your Time ) 1 comment|post comment

[10 Apr 2003|05:27pm] So Benji think I should update. So I'm updating. The only people I've really met are all in some way shape or form related to Good Charlotte...sort of scary really, but the guys are fun to hang out with. My friends call me and start quoting movies for me. "Uh-uh I'm disco barbie" What a big mistake I made being in that movie. I refuse to watch it, I'm afraid to actually. Let's see... .... ....Yup I'm a boring boring person. Who is going to go watch Smallville...Tom Welling is gorgeous and should get a journal. :-x post comment

[06 Apr 2003|05:37pm] What to say about myself? I'm twenty one, I'm an actress, I play Max on Dark Angel. I hate introductions. I really do. ::laughs:: I mean, what are you supposed to say about yourself anyway? AIM: JessicaxxAlba 1 comment|post comment

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